First Man I ever loved!

Did you walk those lanes

From where once our world was born

I'm still stuck on those lanes

From where I started off with you

The silence of the neighborhood is appalling

From where to start 

to tell you  what all happened with me 

I cant decide!

When you left me taking all your presence but silence

Even the river flows silently here

only there is the echo of our laughter 

from the last game we played as a family

A Complete Family!

The silence is even tired of its silence

and wants to break itself 

But the struggle is never ending

It feels like a parallel world running 

it goes with the same timeline 

but only running in past

A part of me is still the 9 years old

yearning to get scolded for all the mischief committed

and the surprise treats 

Yes I admit it I loved falling sick 

for the little surprise treats brought me the joy of a lifetime

Today standing in the crossroads 

I understand the value of 

every little nooks of that life I lost

every moments I lost with you

every moments I cherished with you

One day will again come

when I will lose what is left 

the remaining parts of yours

I remember your last words to me 

Do you remember mine?

Did I get a chance to say my last words?

Did I ever say ?

The memory of the last meeting

Is so crystal in my head

with everyday replay

I remember the worried lines but an unusual calm face

on the wheel chair for the first time

the last hug 

the last time when our eyes met

There was not a drop in my eyes

cause I know the weak cry

I was strong, am strong

And I saw you leave 

for the last time....

You didn't give me hope of comeback

but said you'd be gone for sometime 

I didn't know it would be a longtime, then

That day I gave you my word and 

till now I have kept up to it

But you....

Neither was it yours

Nor was it mine

The love that was ours was abandoned

When you left....

Everyday alone we fight in this tough world

meeting you everyday every time we closed our eyes. 

every night is like a traveler

that the morning bid a goodbye 

waiting for that light when we could see you

when we could all again become one

a bond that is as strong as the sun

If rebirth theory is truly true

I would like to be reborn to you every birth 

but you also have to make a promise

not to cheat on your life like this time

I couldn't see you grow older and wiser

Though I know you always had an eye on me

Feeling the presence in the silence 

but vision never supported me just a Hallucination in my head

I lost faith in the One that people call GOD

maybe I will never regain that faith

But I do believe in You

And I know you know all that is going on with our lives

Or do you?

Dad.