I Think I Write...

noye miche asha...... noye shudhu bhalobasha, noi akaron prem e andho.... jani tumi ami amader tori ajo shei bondhutto tomar chotto tori bolo amaye nebe ki?.......... chader alo jodi bhalo lage keno hoye jaye jhapsha? tomar ei tori jodi chole jaye fire ashbena joto bhalobashi tare dure..roye jabe tato ami jenechi ek paye nupur amar onno pa khali ek pashe sagor ek pashe bali tomar chotto tori bolo nebe ki?

The world all over seems so different.... And I feel so tired being here.....suppressed by all my childish fears..... I used to get captivated by your resonating light..... and now I am bound by the life that you have left behind and moved away way far...................... But your presence still lingers here and it wont leave me alone....... I have tried so hard to tell that you are gone bot still I keep on looking , searching and hoping that 1 day you might return.................... "These wounds wont seem to heal, this pain is just too real, There's just too much that time cannot erase" But still, never giving up, still hoping 1 day....... things will change and be the way I want them to be, 'm looking at the brighter side of all negative things around.......... . . . My college, which literally sucked the 1st day, is now the best place on earth......... New friends and meeting new people everyday, new teachers, new environment.......every

Like a dream it was....................hearing your voice after so many days....weeks.....months......... It still echoes in my mind..........every word you spoke....every syllable........your smile....your voice......your reactions.......your expressions........every sound that i could hear while speaking with you was crystal clear...................i could visualize you even though you are so many miles away from me............ like a dream I cant explain ............ like the sunshine in the rain love makes the whole world fall apart............... talkin about our lives ...new environment ....new friends...........but what i was hearing was just your voice that was speaking to me..............I couldnt hear anything else........ Sometimes the silence made me hear your heart beat................ As if the world is deep inside your soul......... . . . . . . . . . . again the silence .........again all the pain lashing back to my life which seemed for those few minu

Trust...............faith .........believe.............just seems words now formed by the combination of few alphabets. They have lost their meaning for me now... I thought if I try I will be able to forget you. He loved me so much made me think that his love for me will make your chapter in my life fade away. But I was wrong I was not right. You are just not a chapter in my life you constitute the book of my life..... I feel guilty I feel sorry I want to apologize I feel helpless..................he loves me wid his whole heart and here I dont have my heart .......... My heart is pounded and crushed into millions and billions of peices and thier dust is lost ........and m here all lost finding every single peice of my heart trying to bring them together. But everytime I try to join them together I can still see the cracks on them how do I love him wid a broken and torn heart ....I dont noe! He has faith that one day I will go back to him but how do I beleive the word faith and t

Life is changing again........The clouds are moving away........the sun is shinning bright and I am no more numb!! I got someone who is in true love with me..... doesn't care about my past and what he knows that is he wants to be my present and we together will make our future.......... I feel the pains and sufferings that I had to go through all these 5 years are now vanishing and now again I am falling in love........... He is my luck, my fortune, my love and now my life.............. From the day I met him it seemed as if my luck is again shinning on me....................Exam went well, got through the college I wanted to be in and now again I am smiling forgetting my past.....I feel so light cause now he is living in my heart................ Sometimes I am just scared that may be all this is unreal and a dream and I don't wanna wake up from this dream.............................. Love at first sight seemed to be a joke for me before...how can any body fall in

why didn't you understand? , why didn't you feel it?, why did you go away when you promised to be there?, why did you do this?, why did things turned around like this?, why did this happen?, why cant i go to the past and turn every thing right? why....why.....why....me?? I want answers of my questions I look at every possible man and ask them the reason for me being in such a state........but nobody could answer me.They just looked at me blankly and thought that I have gone mad...crazy. Can u tell me..... can u answer my questions. Do you remember me ...do you still miss me the way I miss you every single day...do you feel for me that way...the way you used to feel.............. You are going miles and miles away from me but still you are so close to me ...cause you live in my heart always....... You may forget me but how can I forget you ?? I close my eyes and there I see u standing just in front of me but when i open my eyes ....u are gone...somewhere

We were playing upon the sands by the sea, Talking, laughing, reflecting When all of a sudden I couldn't see you, I thought you were lost forever....... That you were drowning ..... I was frantic, I was scared with the fear of losing you!! I dived into the waves, again and again, Searching for you in vain.............. When I had given up hope and Decided to drown forever too, I saw you standing on the sands Calling me from behind," Here I am!!" Telling me that you were never lost in the ocean of infinity. That you were always with me with a cheeky smile on your face............... Then I woke up in the dream Before me lay empty pages and a pen But Words weren't enough, To tell what I had seen, Words were imperfect, empty and blank for me!! I lay down the pen, And only the empty pages were at all, And then I felt the feelings of emptiness.....in me with an empty space Empty pages Empty spaces Semantic spaces are

Life is a maze and love is a riddle......and Its really very hard to solve this puzzle!!! everyday we meet different kinds of people and some become special to us ,with sum we make friends......with few we fight.....and some meetings just remain untouched in our lives!! I met u first time in my tuition . And as it is said first impression may not be the last impression . I say this because when i first met you I found u to be a person full of attitude and arrogant and no-body-is-of-my-kind/i-am-the-special kind of thinking person. I hated to talk to you and had decided that unless you speak to me I wont say anything to you. That day our tutor had asked to borrow the copy from you for some notes but then your disgusting handwriting was just illegible . When i said this to you I really thought u to say something very rude kind but you were unexpectedly soft, polite, calm and said that you will try to change it. The expression on your face, your politeness to me...........that day

The carefree days of our school life, the days filled with a lot of fun and masti are all on the verge of coming to an end. Life was beautiful in those days when we fought for stupid reasons and quarreled with each other for silly things... maybe just for getting the window seat in the bus while returning home. Life seems to come to an end with the farewell of the school but when I look forward and see the rising sun from the dark clouds it just seems to be a beginning of a new life , a new beginning. Life is too long but time is too short and the world is very small. So may be the friends we are saying goodbye and ta ta and toddles today and make promises to meet each other again after we are well established ,may not meet them again but it may also happen that the classmates and batch mates with whom we didn't really get well in the 14 years of school life.... when bump into each other after several years become friends and discover the bond that we were unable to find